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So I waited another 15 minutes and she called to say she was pulling into the lot.
We ended up going to Applebees because Legends was closed.
We ordered dinner and made some small talk.
She said she wanted to see a movie on Christmas Eve. I told her I would have to think about it.
So from 8:45pm to about 9:30 pm was our little get together. Not very long huh. I'm home now.
Tired, confused, longing for the days when she would kiss me just because.
I did find out she was telling the truth about norman. his daughter was sick and he was really upset about it and needed help closing the pharmacy down because he was on the phone with his wife. It's kinda nice having my brother working there too. He checked on things.
Jenn mentioned that she thinks my brother Jay doesn't like her very much.
I asked her if her brother would like me if I had made her so unhappy and heartbroken as I've been. She said nothing in reply.
I'm not sure if it will get better. I understand that I was her first real boyfriend, etc.
We still have a good time when we do hang out but it's note easy for me. It pains me knowing she'll hug me or hold my hand but wont kiss my they way she used to or wont stay the night with me anymore. Her constantly saying " ou know I don't want anything serious" makes me truly sad.

Why am I unlovable?

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ocean_soul
Dec. 23rd, 2008 03:35 am (UTC)
You're not unlovable, you're just trying to get love from someone who doesn't love you. :/
danii
Dec. 23rd, 2008 03:48 am (UTC)
You're not unlovable! I love you BljFF. :D
kakumei_tenjou
Dec. 23rd, 2008 04:07 am (UTC)
You are so loveable :(! I think it's just a case of looking for love in the wrong places.
der_schatzi
Dec. 23rd, 2008 04:12 am (UTC)
You're a very lovable and desirable person... you just keep finding the wrong people to see that and reciprocate.
mage13
Dec. 23rd, 2008 12:40 pm (UTC)
your not unlovable, you just keep getting bad breaks
ironqueen
Dec. 23rd, 2008 08:15 pm (UTC)
I'm new to your journal but I know you deserve someone much better than her.
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